MY FIRST LOVE~MISS.BALDWIN HILLS~

THIS DUMB ASS NIGGA I'LL NEVER FORGET. FOLKS DID ME WRONG, BUT IT WAS WHAT IT WAS. I CAN'T DENY MY FEELINGS I LOVED THE LAME. YEAH HE DID ME IN AND I WAS HURT FOR LIKE A MONTH OR TWO.(I HEAL FAST.THE NIGGA IN ME). I TOLD MY SELF NEVER AGAIN. LOVE HOLDS NO PLACE IN MY HEART ANYMORE. WE COOL THO I AINT SEEN HIM YEARS AND OUT THE BLUE I HEAR FROM HIM*SO ME I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO HIM*BUT SHIT WE GROWN THAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL DAYS SO IT WAS WHAT IT WAS AND HE DID WHAT HE DID*OF COURSE I HAD TO LET HIM GO. BUT BEING WITH HIM(AFTER INVITING ME TO A BBQ AND HIS GIRL WAS THERE)IT WAS COOL. NO HARD FEELINGS RUSHED IN AND I WASN'T NO BITCH ABOUT IT*ON SOME-WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS IF I CAN'T BE WITH YOU TYPE SHIT*IT WAS LIKE TWO NIGGAS KICKIN' IT.BECAUSE WE WERE FRIENDS BEFORE WE WERE LOVERS. BUT I LIKED IT AND TOTALLY DIDN'T MIND HIS GIRL(CAN'T SAY THE SAME FOR HER).YEAH YOU CAN BE FRIENDS WITH AN EX LOVER EVEN IF THEY DID SMASH,CRUSH TEAR,AND RIP OUT YOUR HEART. IT IS ALL ABOUT FORGIVENESS AND THE OTHER PERSON AS WELL. AND IT IS TRUE DON'T FORGIVE TO QUICK*MY HEART HEALED IN A FEW MONTHS BUT THE SCAR WAS STILL VISIBLE. IT TOOK ALMOST 4 OF THEM THANGS TO NOW TALK TO HIM AND STAND IN HIS PRESENCE AND NOT HATE HIM. TIMES WAS GOOD AND I LIKED IT*FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET* HE WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS BE MY FIRST LOVE. THEY SAY BULLSHIT LIKE KEEP AN OPEN HEART AND LOVE AGAIN*FUCK ALL THAT LOVE AN ALL THAT SHIT*IT IS WHAT IT IS.MAYBE ONE DAY SUPERMAN WILL COME SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET AND THEN IT'LL RAIN MONEY,BUT TILL THEN I GOTTA HAVE A LOCK AND KEY*CAUSE ALWAYS DEEP INSIDE I'LL FOREVER LOVE HIM*I THINK THAT APPLIES FOR MOST OF THE FEMALES WHO MOVE ON BUT STILL THERE IS THAT PATCH WITH HIS NAME ON IT.

My First Love - Avant